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Didn't see the dog

No decoy

https://twitter.com/BBCArchive/status/1201169085033259010?s=20
Ideas on how to replace it, I figure this is one of the better videos showing how.
You'd be surprised I could not find the video on YouTube only twitter and Facebook. Took some time in browsing searches to even come up.

I am getting shadows in my eye and when I was running into the office kicked the dog as I was running to my phone into the glass door as the dog was running out and broke the glass. There is shadows in my eye that seems right as sin and often feels like it's a game.  That I didn't see the dog and almost fell into the glass door in the collision.

Drag the dog by the collar on two hind legs out side then,
I cleaned it up and vacuumed it up.

I didn't respond well to the accident.  I was mad I never saw her, the dog had tears in her eye, I felt horrible.

Went for a walk after, yet could not fall asleep that night.  I am tired, my body hurts.  I am exhausted.  All I do I long to be home with the dog to play ball in my chair.  She is always excited to see me.  Now later she is cheery, yet I keep this decoy then punt her into a glass door vision all night and next day.

I will have to tell Nathan except it's high stress for everyone. I will tell him next week.

I couldn't fall asleep cause I am having day visions of devoting the dog like I am tormented and I then go punt her into a glass door.

Like some psycho.

I never even saw the dog.  I almost went through the door.  It's appalling collision that keeps replaying and I am up for hour.  I could not relax last night

I have not slept,

So I feel like crying.

How come you mean, a bit edgy at work I see.
Well, it's a bit archiac.  Often it's a stressful concurrently.  Everyone textual yet no fixation for validation or resentment. Often any contextual is in deep of litigation of politics and government. That is against local council.  That is all unbalancing to the textual person.  I see stress as season change and my error get baited every year with an alturistic that depersonalization.  Often I need more time alone, yet wish to socialize. Times I feel sorry for a note, then next day burn it for therapy.
I have been burning many notes for therapy.  Yet it seems more lately that society wants to burn banking info as ways I just see a learning lesson 😃 yet a lesson that keeps repeating, as this year everyone has different debt more or less.  Everyone or anyone take niceness as an alternative motive and to much nothing over the years that causes blood.

I often think that these shadows that were games is now the twilight zone.  That never gets explained except to make as delusional and make believe, same as my hand pain last February that I got an MRI changes in the season. Is make believe, all these self admitting in fall and spring that make talking even to connect seems like an alternative movie or improvising for who or how come is indirect if nothing that I hear until I respond when it becomes direct.  The weeks don't know after each day and usually I don't know if things repeat or which day of the week it is.  Often I just feel interrupted which is odd to say I had a thought at times that just leaves.  Or I seem to be looking for things that i once had that get placed other places. It's a game I often try to keep positive on.  Yet I seem to be more terrifying volume this year the the rest of the year where it's only complex lines.  It like I have to be in control of delays that I have no responsibility for or influence and I see the world with more influentiality that and this of the delay I got and lack of control in my life of farmer hunter mentally seems to water board me with a several to one word for word.
It's a losing battle on a gate, slate, pour that is often blank all the time, until I am struck with.

If one ones a story,

Lastly you see such terror as no heat in the mailroom a walk out soon to be lock out.  That order of Toronto Star was liberal media well they liquidation of all staff the oldest union and we'll it's archiac that it's all online and crowdsourced now instead of building cost
 A central private cost that has low validation unless in life except to sway appeal to public.  That if there is no right or left only doing it right then CBC is neo-right.
That last year they closed the Herald to see if one building would do and an online social distance ads go up.
That the Herald could easily go to a central private cost for rallying the troops for UCP and the oldest building with the biggest basement down down close.  There's a new building going up beside. I am sure the real estate is quite worth the dime.  And that they had one building doing the medicine hat and Lethbridge for the whole purpose to see if the venture is possible.  The second wave would look as that benefitial as letting so of senior long term employees that are only job is the Herald would be to keep the deals and the delay of an actual contextual litigation of resentment and delay negotiations for the textual.  Basically close the building and expect a little extra on your check at the end of the month.

I get it, I have low validation and take the stress out on my body, of only being intuitive and overly friendly.  I am no prophet I can simple read the future earlier than most.  It often causes me such heart ache in repeating visions that often are not reality.
And not the current of events or the contextual ideas a simple delusional textual interrupted the sale, tab, reciept, stub ot a let or a dear.

I often think with finical and intimacy are all getting low validation just through on work into the pile.
A mild for a balance that sleep fails and I stay up at night seeing myself torment my dog. Then pace trying to keep busy and last pair a show I blew out my runner now my knee feels blown out do does my hip, my ankles my whole leg hurts and the dog is teary eyed that I have let down her attendance of a walk.

I could not feel much more as a let down these last couple days in my life management  and time skills.
Socially I'm nice, yet nice guys I hear never have good endings.  And so I'm paranoid about my pain.
Why don't people sit early at the restaurants. Old guys used to sit at a table, get to know the other old guys.  Soon those guys get together and make a table, talk weather, life, marriage.
I need that now.

Socially I feel alone, introvert I feel like there's always a line I have to be in and it's to crowded for me.

I am not getting the balance I need in personality.  And it's bothering me to no end.  Where'd these connection go that were once here.

I guess I lit it that way since it's a day of get loss land I pense it's over.

Any or to be.  Neither-or fallacy and no other fallacy to be included.  Loss never repairs and reconnects or untangles.  Yet lots of living keep tangling.  It's all lie or lay in those low laid books.  That never under or over in plurals









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